Posted in Psalm, On Sufferings

Psalm 13

:1 – O Lord, how long will you forget me?  Forever?  How long will you look the other

:2 – How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul, with sorrow in my heart

Posted in Lift up your head

Out of The Bad Comes The Good

This world is full of bad things.  No doubt about it.  We asked God if He is such a good God why does He let it happen.  Doesn’t He care?  When it happens to us directly we get shaken and risk losing our faith, causing us to rebel and abandon our faith completely.    We are worse now than before He found us.  Reminds me of an event in Luke 11:24-26:

“When an evil spirit leaves a person, it goes into the desert, searching for rest.  But when it finds none, it says, ‘I will return to the person I came from.’  So it returns and finds that its former home is all swept and clean.  Then the spirit finds seven other spirits more evil than itself, and they all enter the person and live there.  And so that person is worse than before.”

The Bible is literally filled with bad things happening to good people.  We are not even comparable to their faith.  Why did they endure such things?  For one thing, they believe with all their heart and might added with insurmountable amount of faith.  Second, they weren’t doing it merely for the merit or rewards but out of love, for the sake of their relationship between God and them.  I could say that was one of the stumbling block that I had in my Christian life doing the things that God commands me to do in exchange of material blessings.  It shouldn’t be that way, we obey Him because that is our duty as Christian and it is the mark of being a believer to live like the way He commands us to.

Have you ever notice that Satan gives you whatever you want to have and God doesn’t.  God either says yes, no, maybe or wait.  The world defines the first as good because he always gives you what you want , with a catch of course, your soul.  Nothing is free except the grace of God.  To those who have children what do you think would happen if you give every demand your child ask you?  See, what I mean?

Bad things happen not because God hates you.  It is one of the lies the enemy that he plants in your head.  Look at the Bible, it is full of it.  From Joseph getting sold to slavery and imprisonment for absolutely doing nothing wrong, David being hunted down by Saul and holding himself from doing harm to Saul inspite all the oppurtunities provided to do such thing.  Daniel in the lion’s den, Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah into the blazing furnace.  The furnace was so hot that the soldiers got burned and killed them.  Don’t forget Job and all the apostles that went through terrible things.   What would happen if they did the opposite thing?  Even Israel’s rebellion made the salvation of the world possible.

It is in things like these that God’s presence is revealed.  The question is are we going to have faith enough?  Are we going to be patient enough?  Are we going to be like Job who said, “The Lord gives and the Lord takes it away. Let the name of the Lord be praise.”  Or are we going to listen to what his wife said, “Curse God and die.” When the time comes that we become impatient and weariness comes, are we going to say, “Forget it I’ll act on my own.” Yet God, reminds us:

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.  Seek His will in all you do, and He will direct your paths (Prov. 3:5-6).”

Hold on to your faith and to His promises. Focus on His works and what He called you to do.  If you may ask what if He stay silent, then I’ll leave this words for you, for all of us:

“Even though the fig trees have no blossoms, and there are no grapes on the vine, even though the olive crop fails, and the fields lie empty and barren; even though the flocks die in the field, and the cattle barns are empty, yet I will rejoice in the Lord! I will be joyful in the God of my salvation (Habakkuk 3:17-18).”

“If it be so, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the furnace of blazing fire; and He will deliver us out of your hand , O king.  But even if He does not, let it be known to you, O king, that we are not going to serve your gods or worship the golden image that you have set up (Daniel 3:17-18).”



Posted in Lift up your head

Three Most Dangerous Words

Three most dangerous words.  What is it that comes to your mind when I say this.  You might be surprise that it is not what you think it is.  I will give you a clue.  It’s not something that could get you punch in the face or be thrown in jail.  It’s not something that could ruin your career or mire your reputation.  It’s not something that you could say to your spouse in which you’ll end up sleeping on the couch tonight or worse outside of the house.

It’s worse than that.

When you say these words, you’re allowing the other person to venture into your soul rather than staring at your body. It is the epitome of complete surrender.  Knowing that the individual could betray you, hurt you, at any given time.  But you don’t think of that because you know in your heart the moment you say those three words, it’s more than saying I trust you, it’s surrendering all of you, letting someone through the window of your eyes and venture deep into your soul.

You are at work, he is a at work. You are at home and she has to travel far afar.  Both of you would think,”I wonder what my honey is doing now?”  Is she just working or is he flirting around? But you wouldn’t think that because he gave you his three words and she gave hers too. But life has a way of turning things around. You could win today, you could lose tomorrow.

That day came, you can’t believe it with your own eyes. He is holding someone’s arms. She is in someone arms.  Tears rolled down. Heads bowed down.  You feel the pain throbbing in to your chest, like a million daggers stabbing continuously in your heart.  Now I know why those three words are the most dangerous one.

Then God look down, and He said to you, “Don’t worry child, I know how it feels.  I’ve sent my begotten Son and look what they’ve done.”

And as you read through the final lines, God whispers at you by your side and says, “My child would you like to know now what are  the Three Most Dangerous Words, because that’s exactly the reason why I sent my Son.”

Posted in Lift up your head

Slave to Fear

I am by no means a professional in the medical field nor I am implying a medical advise.  Always seek professional help from trained medical professional and your clergy.

We all have all our fears.  Depending on one’s perspective it could be either destructive or constructive. I would like to talk about the first.  Fear is a natural human response.  It is wired to us to ensure our survival but at the same time this very human trait could also mean our demise.  It could mean either a springboard for our success or total annihilation of our humanity resulting to undesirable feelings. Stress to anxiety, anxiety to depression, depression to helplessness, and the most unfortunate of them all, the extinguishing of one’s life.

Regardless of the degree of what we are currently facing and what we’ve been through, you are not the only one.  We like to camouflage our outside appearance with a smile, saying we are fine even though we are not.  We look at other people, our neighbor, the wealthy individual and start to compare ourselves to them.  A voice inside us saying , “They’ve made it and here I am trying to go through another day, just surviving.”  What do we know when we always assume things.  Maybe they’re thinking the same thing like you do, maybe they’re worse than what you think.

It’s been almost a year now since I got divorced.  I admit I didn’t know what to do.  It’s like the world stops and fear just engulf me.  It dragged me down into the pits of the abyss, kept me chained up day in day out.  In spite of the hopelessness and despair that accompany me there, there is one thing that shine a light, and that is the word of God.

Regardless of what you believe in.  I hope that I’ll be able to help from what I’ve learned.

1. Control Your Thoughts
– Most important step.  You need gain control of your mind.  Shut out all the voices that keeps hammering you with negative ones.  Read books that inspire and encourage.  Read it until those negative thoughts we’ll be drowned by it. Your mind controls everything. Do not let it control you. Take control of it. When you’re able to do this, everything becomes easier. Write a quote that  you most like on a post it note and place it where you could see it all the time.  I did it and I still have them but I seldom read them now.
We are destroying speculations and every lofty thing raised up against the knowledge of God, and we are taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ. (2Cor. 10:5)

2. What You See is What You Get
– This is all about perception.  Now that you have your mind in control, a physical manifestation must occur.  Regardless how hard or easy a life is, if you look at life as a hardship it’ll always be hard.  You need to have clear vision by analyzing what cause the fear the first place.  You don’t need a big solution right away.  Gradually tackle it even in small ways, the goal is not how fast to overcome it but how to get to that goal or solution you have set.  You have to maintain that pace no matter how small, don’t stop.
The eye is the lamp of the body; so then if your eye is clear, your whole body will be full of light. (Matt. 6:22 NASB)

3. Face It Head On
– Did you just sink in fear again? I can hear your throat gulping and your heart pumping. It’s okay I felt the same way too.  Running from your fear will not resolve anything unless you’re in danger.  You can get drunk all you want, immerse yourself in entertainment, take all the drugs, ignore it all you want it’s still going to be there.  I can’t tell you enough how fearful I was but I had no choice but to press on forward.  Because that is where the future is.  You can’t just stop there because once you stop, fear will keep you push back until you reach that wall that you can’t breathe anymore.
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear, but of power and of love, and of a sound mind. (2Timothy 1:7)

4. Keep On Facing It
– Now that you got yourself on the starting line.  Everything else becomes easy.  Do not quit no matter how hard or heartbreaking it is. If you want to cry, cry. I cried and I am a guy nothing wrong with that.  Do not become complacent, do not compromise.  The one that is victorious are the ones that never quit.  Focus on the reward not the hardship.  Then one day you’ll tell yourself, “Did I do that?”  You”ll laugh and then laugh more how silly you made yourself out of fear and here you are, you did it, you conquered it.
Behold I am the Lord, the God of all flesh, is anything too difficult for me? (Jer. 32:27 NLT)
..Do not be afraid any longer, only believe – Jesus Christ (Mark 5:36NLT)

What about you? What is keeping you up at night?  How did you conquer your fear?


Posted in Be a Berean

What Is Your Sword?

A Christian’s life is a series of battles.  Sometimes you win, other times you lose and sometimes a draw.  We wage a battle not physically but spiritually, not against flesh and blood but against unseen things (Ephesians 6:12).  Whether it be the war within ourselves or the battle to make our own choices, the word of God is clear how we are going to defend our selves. He  equipped us completely like a soldier or a warrior going to battle (Ephesians 6:13-17).

It is easy to get confuse  when it comes to different bible versions.  We have the King James, New International, New American Standard Bible, etc.  So which one?  I started out on New International Version , then to King James Version when I attended a Baptist church. There was a time where I became a King James Version only guy.  “The other versions are just corrupted”, so I said to myself.  That’s why sometimes you hear the saying, “King James cult”.  I am not hear to demean other versions.  Rather to show you which sword you should pick since the word of God is our sword (Ephesians 6:17).


Currently I am using the New Living Translation. Again, I am not here to sell and promote a specific version.  Ever since I used this version, everything is more clear to me.  The fruit I am producing is abounding.  This blog and it’s words are one of its fruits.  If you’re a Christian, the day you got save doesn’t end there.  You are  to bear fruits (Matthew 13:23).

1. Don’t pick a version in which they’re missing verses.
2. Be aware of missing words and has been switch to a different verse.
3. Choose something that you are comfortable and understandable.
4. Makes you grow and closer to God. If not, then find something else.
5. Research all the time and always compare to other versions when there is something you don’t understand.  I still  keep my NASB, KJV and NKJV for comparison.

The enemy is out there looking for every way to corrupt God’s word.  So sharpen your swords and treat it like your spouse, the way a rifle is to a Marine, you’re life depends on it.  Now, I don’t know how you treat your spouse (kidding.)

What kind of sword do you have and why?

Posted in Psalm, On Sufferings

Psalm 119

:25 – I lie in the dust completely discouraged..

:28 – I weep with grief..

:71 – The suffering you sent was good for me..

:82 – My eyes are straining to see your promises come true. When will you comfort me?

:83 – I am shriveled like a wineskin in the smoke, exhausted with waiting.

:92 – ..I would have died in misery.

:107 – I have suffered much, O Lord.

:123 – My eyes strain to see your deliverance, to see the truth of your promise fulfilled.

:136 – Rivers of tears gush from my eyes..

:141 – I am insignificant and despised..

:143 – As pressure and stress bear down on me..

:146 – I cry out to you; save me..

:147 – ..I cry out for help..

:148 – I stay awake through the night..

:149 – ..O Lord, hear my my life.

:153 – Look down upon my sorrows..

:157 – Many persecute and trouble me..

:169 – O Lord, listen to my cry..

:176 – I have wandered away like a lost sheep..

Posted in Poems

My name is…

When you were born I was there
I saw the joy in your mother’s eyes while you cry
And she held you the first time in her arms
She was in pain while she delivered you
As soon as you came out that pain turned into overflowing joy

I watch you as you began to grow
Words muted, speaking and walking barely
As seasons passes they become more clear
You limp, then start walking, couldn’t stop talking, questioning everything
Next time I know you are running, jumping
Eager to learn what kind of world you are in
Your parents could barely keep up with you

I have high expectations for you
Sure this fellow must be different
Innocent and what is better than having a child’s heart
That is the kind of heart that’ll listen and obey Him
That is the kind of heart that knows no doubting

Behold it’s your first day in school
Nervous, afraid but you got through all of it
Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years
Has gone by everything seemed like yesterday

The moment you have a taste of the world has to offer you
The heart of a child is no more
You’ve turn into something I never expected
You’ve become prideful, you’ve hurt countless people
With your tongue you deceived many
You’ve gain riches and amass power
Through oppression, repression and deception
You considered yourself a god

How I was disappointed in you but you made your choice
The people you’ve hurt, I hear they’re cry and groanings
Day and night, and like them I was crying too
I couldn’t watch them any longer
The more I waited, the more wicked you’ve become
The number of people you’ve oppress grew even more
They wailed, they cried, and tears flow from my eyes

I was ready to struck you down with a sickle in my palm
But His hand grab my arm
He said, “Stop!! Let’s give the fellow more time.”
Hoping you’ll change in due time

I waited
Winter, spring, summer, fall
I waited
Rain, snow, heat
Dawn, morning, noon, evening
I waited
Lightning, thunder, storms
I waited
Until the day time has caught up to you

Then I heard your voice
Whispering, words mumbling, hands trembling
Fear blanketing
I turned my gaze towards you
Breath gasping
Reality struck you, and you said
“I am not a god”

As you close your eyes
And took your last breath
I’d like to introduce myself
My name is…
I have authority over you
Ever since the beginning of time

So do not be prideful
Always stay humble
At the end of your time
I’ll be there waiting for you

Oh, and one more thing
He’s not the only one watching
I am watching too…

Posted in Poems

Drop of Blood

A drop of blood fell on a dust
But the dust didn’t know
It was done out of love
The dust keep choosing
A lifestyle of lust

The drop of blood didn’t stop
It doesn’t matter if the dust went bust
Then the dust got lost
In the sea of lust

The lust have swept
Unto its heart
It thrust its might
Till there is no light

But the drop of blood didn’t stop
What started as drops
Now it’s trickling
It was trickling
Now it’s pouring
Drowning out the sea of lust

It is the only one
That could save the dust

The dust stood up
It says
Now I know this is the
Sea of love