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The Lost Sheep

Things were a lot easier when you were young. You don’t have to work, no bills to pay, all you worry about is your education and how the kids in school treats you. That, and having to deal with your nagging parents, if only they could understand you. Trust me they’re saying to themselves too, if you could only understand them.

Fast forward to adult life. It’s a roller coaster ride. We always want to be happy. If we’re not, we end up being miserable. When we reached our goals, we thought we’ll be satisfied. Only to find we want more. Before you just want a simple life. You didn’t want a house, an apartment is enough, never wanted a nice car, as long as it’s sufficient for your needs. You dreamed of being married, of settling down. But you know it’s not settling down at all. Now, you understand why your parents treated you that way. Now, that you’re a parent you could feel how they felt when they tell you you’re being extravagant.

Your thinking if you could just turn back time and do it all over again. You could have done this in that way and not this way. You wish you could be single again. Being married is too stressful. You do your best as you could to provide for your family and yet in spite all this you don’t get appreciated. You feel so alone that you think that God has forsaken you. Who would’ve had thought that life as a Christian could be this hard. Why didn’t God provided a caring partner, instead of yourself doing everything.

There’s nothing more painful than being ignored by the very person whom you love and supposed to love you. Love without action is not love. Envy start to settle in. You start going after material things. Later to find out that after the excitement wears out, you feel miserable. “Maybe God has forsaken me,” you said. “Why does God allow this things to happen to me,” asking Him. Fist clenched and tears rolling down. Screaming on top of your lungs because you just can’t take the frustration, despair, the loneliness, feeling of abandonment. You’ve cried a ton and yet God keeps quite. Enough is enough, I guess I’ll take action. Have you forgotten this?


You are so blinded by your trials and by trying to satisfy individuals hoping that they’ll love you back and one day they’ll change. Hope turns into despair and you’ve forgotten the words I’ve spoken to you.

So, this is what you did.

I found a religion that talks about forgiveness. No guilt. Reincarnation instead of heaven. We’re all connected in one. It taught me how to treat every living thing as precious. From grass, to trees, to the smallest insects. It gave me a broader sense of what forgiveness is. To let go. That happiness is just a state of mind. I venerate a statue. I look at with awe, with this sense of spirituality. For a while it ease the sufferings and the loneliness. Better than the material things and  flesh has to offer.

However, questions keep coming up on my mind. Doubt and confusion. Why would I worship the very works of mans hand. And what I am being forgiven from. Of all the movement in the world there’s only one who died for his followers. The rest, their followers died for them. All their prophets are dead but Jesus Christ is the only who has risen. His apostles risk being tortured, imprisoned, beaten, mocked, forsaken. And left everything for the sake of Him. I realized now why everyone is running away from the truth. Because they don’t want to admit they have sinned. That we pick religions base on what suit us rather to embrace the truth that we are lost and have sinned. We never did anything what God said not to do and yet we blame Him for everything. What if we actually do what he is asking us to do. Would there be any change?

Now, I realize it’s all been me along. God has nothing to do with it. It was all my choice. He showed me the way but I refuse to walk in it. That throughout all along what he desire is a personal relationship. So here I am in my knees, tears on my cheek. Now I understand everything. That God is love indeed. I was blind but now I can see. I heard Him talking but I wasn’t listening. It’s not too late to repent as long as I’m here breathing. I finally understand now how to worship him in spirit and in truth.

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Modern Churches, Social Clubs?

I have a confession to make. I haven’t been to church regularly. Part of it just mere laziness, listening to the same message over and over. Boredom. A mixture of discontentment toward God due to all the crazy things that’s going on in this world. Lastly, I couldn’t find a church that preach the truth straight from the Bible. To the point that I start questioning Him but never doubting Him.

Recently, I decided to attend service and I’m really glad I did. The embers of my faith is starting to glow again. The churches today are so different from 25-30 years ago. I am not saying that there’s nothing wrong with it. It is just an observation and comparison on my part. I believe all the things that we go through life aren’t coincidence at all, whether it be good or bad. I believe God has a reason and purpose. The other day, I asked Him is this the reason why, to let me see what churches or campuses, as they’re called now, to let me see what the churches have become.

A lot of things have change for the past 30 years. Once in a while I miss the 80’s. It was my decade. From music to fashion to culture to morality. Sadly, the churches today have change too.

I asked a co-worker of mine why he stop going to church. He replied and said, “They’re just bunch of social clubs.” This is not a generalization of churches here. I know they are good ones.

Church attendance is at an all time low according to the media. However, when I talked to other believers they’re main reason is it’s hard to find a church that preach the truth. I’ve been to quite a few churches here. The way I look at it they are right. Sometimes they would get muddled in political correctness or the pressure of not offending anyone.

I remember back in the days we never had coffee bars or those other nice amenities. I am not saying their bad. What is the motive behind it? Is it to attract people to come to church? Shouldn’t people go to church to get save and listen to the word of God? The worship stage is very different too. It feels like you’re in a concert. It has this theatrical aura to it. In which I would ask, does people come to feel good and motivated? Campus-that’s what most of the churches are called nowadays. The first time I heard it , I thought it was a seminary or a college bible school. What’s wrong with the word church?

Even the praise and worship songs are different. Back then, they have trumpets and tambourines. It was more joyful. Kinda like a comparison of the songs back then to today, if you know what I mean.

Believers shouldn’t give in from the pressure, conform or love the things of this world. Christ is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. Complacency and compromise is the most dangerous to the faith. It is very subtle, silent, agile and deadly. By the time you realized you’ve seen sin, you’re already backslide. If you need inspiration, look to the apostles and Christ himself. The things they endured is not even comparable to the things we’re experiencing right now.

Remember 1Peter 5:8-9, “Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. But resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same experiences of suffering are being accomplished by your brethren who are in the world.”


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The Abuse of John 3:16

Unconditional love? Is there such a thing? Could you love someone who doesn’t love you back? Would that be the epitome of what perfect love is.

If God loves is unconditional, why would he send someone to hell for not obeying him. I hear that all the time.  Things like, “What kind of God is that,  if you don’t do what he wants he’ll send you to hell .  That’s not unconditional love.  If it’s unconditional He’ll love me no matter what. Jesus love sinners, the broken, the failures and losers. It’s the kind of people whom society have rejected, the murderer, liar,thief and prostitutes. All the sinners Jesus called have all one thing in common-they repented of their sins. From Zaccheus to Paul.

People love to quote John 3:16, “For God so loved the world, that He gave His one and only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life.” This verse have been abuse so much that it’s like a magic potion to make us feel a little better when we sin or worse’ when we’re about to commit sin. They never mention the proceeding verses which is from 17-21, “for God did not send the Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world might be saved through Him. He who believes in Him is not judged; he who does not believe has been judged already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. This is the judgment, that the Light has come into the world, and men loved the darkness rather than the Light, for their deeds were evil. For everyone who does evil hates the Light, and does not come to the Light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But he who practices the truth comes to the Light, so that his deeds may be manifested as having been wrought in God.”


God’s love is unconditional not because we commit sin intentionally and freely, rather that in spite of our weaknesses and failures, the wretch creature we are. He still sent His one and only son to prove to us how much he value us. There’s no relationship in this world that doesn’t involve a set of rules and standards. Look at parents and their children. Or a couple. Without it everything is chaos.

So, when you hear someone saying to you or to others regarding John 3:16, do not forget that there is a judgement. Do not rely on what other people has to say or those shares on social media that it’s okay to continue on sinning. Read the bible yourself, meditate on it and pray. Without repentance, without change then all your hearing is just a simple motivational speech.

Jesus said himself,”Don’t call me Lord if you don’t follow what I say.”